Well, we all know what happens 3 months from now. Us Seniors finally get to wear our purple and gold cap and gowns. That's scary as hell. But it's so exciting and many of us are counting down the days. As much as I don't want to rush it, I'm so ready for change. We still have Mr. Bucksport, Lip Dub, Lip sync, Prom..So many exciting things before that happens. But Graduation is all I can seem to focus on. Graduation means we leave BHS and never walk these halls as BHS students again. It means college. For me, college is a plane ride away, alllllllll the way in Illinois. Scary. It's a small town, and Lake Forest College has about 2400 students, it's small, which is great for me. Part of me dreads leaving what I know and who I love here, but the other part of me is so excited to meet new people and to be in a completely different place. The longest I'll be away from home is 3-4 months. But it's not just a drive away, it's a plane ride or two. Tonight at nine o'clock at night, I sit here writing about how I anticipate the moment I leave for three months in August, but these thoughts occur every night. It's scary but I'm excited for what the rest of the school year brings.
Oh, what sweet bed time reading. I know you're nervous. I know exactly how you feel. I've been every age you've been plus a few, and I can so clearly remember that feeling - torn. Ready to go but hating to leave. Loving my high school friends but wanting to spread my wings. Being worried sick about leaving my folks but knowing that if I never left the state I'd be living in their basement in four years (probably not the basement, but you know what I mean.) I would never really do things for myself if I stayed close enough for them to do them for me.
It's going to be really hard at first Alexx and you'll question why you thought you could do this and how come you're not adjusting better. You may cry or get sick or think you can't do it, but you can. You're strong. You'll surprise yourself (not me though:)
Now, enjoy what's left of this year no worries. Enjoy this blog too. Next time, throw me another 100 words or so. Love what you did with the wallpaper and font. Looks fab.
Oh, what sweet bed time reading. I know you're nervous. I know exactly how you feel. I've been every age you've been plus a few, and I can so clearly remember that feeling - torn. Ready to go but hating to leave. Loving my high school friends but wanting to spread my wings. Being worried sick about leaving my folks but knowing that if I never left the state I'd be living in their basement in four years (probably not the basement, but you know what I mean.) I would never really do things for myself if I stayed close enough for them to do them for me.
ReplyDeleteIt's going to be really hard at first Alexx and you'll question why you thought you could do this and how come you're not adjusting better. You may cry or get sick or think you can't do it, but you can. You're strong. You'll surprise yourself (not me though:)
Now, enjoy what's left of this year no worries. Enjoy this blog too. Next time, throw me another 100 words or so. Love what you did with the wallpaper and font. Looks fab.